Hopelessly Devoted to You

It must be song week in my life. This song was one I sang at karaoke with Larry on our first date. He was gonna sing as he promised and never did. Hmmm, reflecting back on our lives together, I never took that hint. Promises not kept.

Well things are a little tenuous for me at the moment. Frustrated by choices that others are making and not sure where to move the studio. I don’t want to stay with a landlord who is unresponsive. I don’t want to work 12 hour days 6 days a week to cover the rent of a space that isn’t fully used 75% of the time. It’s wasteful. It’s silly. It’s all back to vanity, ego, and a relationship where I was not honored but a prized workhorse. Nope, no desire to continue like that.

So this brings me to the song. I am hopelessly devoted to God. I know he has the map on Taylor’s school plans, the studio’s destination, and my life. He’ll show me the path when he’s ready. I can kick and scream, which I am very good at, or I can wait and abide. I have already scrubbed 4 dance floors out of frustration. I’ve looked at properties, tried to figure out if there is marketing I could do in Maple Lawn to get their support, checked out Columbia, and talked to Taylor and Larry about her plans to stray from the original school plan. I can beat myself up for not being able to control all these things or I can go to work and do what I do best until it all settles. Well, I know you can already guess what I have to and will do. So just so you know God, I am hopelessly devoted like Olivia was to John. I won’t be floating stationary in kiddie pool, but my message is the same. I will stay true no matter the choices, no matter the difficulties. You know me….stubborn to the core!

Wishing you devotion worth waiting on…..his plans are always better than our own.

January 28, 2012. Uncategorized.